I have this emotional longing to do something really special and unique that no one else could do.
I guess I think that we all make something really special and unique that no one else could do, every time we make art. Your second weird non-human POV with Biblical imagery SPN vid is not only going to be different from your first one, it's going to be different from any weird non-human POV with Biblical imagery SPN vid that anyone else would make -- because they'd make it their way, and not your way.
I see what you're getting at about the wrongth of the quest for originality as defined by poets, Romantics, Freud, etc. The power problems are inherent in art as it exists under the patriarchy. But I don't see anything wrong with wanting your work to be new and different; it may not be useful to you to have that as a motivating force, but I guarantee you it's useful to me. Maybe it's ego, and maybe it's just what gets me into my vidding chair, but whatever it is, it works.
Maybe the striving for special snowflakitude is bad, but I believe that we are unique, and that the things we make will be defined by our particular qualities, even as I believe that all art is essentially collaborative and inextricably enmeshed with the culture from which it springs.
Re: Allow me to adjust my tiara...
I guess I think that we all make something really special and unique that no one else could do, every time we make art. Your second weird non-human POV with Biblical imagery SPN vid is not only going to be different from your first one, it's going to be different from any weird non-human POV with Biblical imagery SPN vid that anyone else would make -- because they'd make it their way, and not your way.
I see what you're getting at about the wrongth of the quest for originality as defined by poets, Romantics, Freud, etc. The power problems are inherent in art as it exists under the patriarchy. But I don't see anything wrong with wanting your work to be new and different; it may not be useful to you to have that as a motivating force, but I guarantee you it's useful to me. Maybe it's ego, and maybe it's just what gets me into my vidding chair, but whatever it is, it works.
Maybe the striving for special snowflakitude is bad, but I believe that we are unique, and that the things we make will be defined by our particular qualities, even as I believe that all art is essentially collaborative and inextricably enmeshed with the culture from which it springs.