Panel Report: I Suck

[thuviaptarth]

Moderated by fan_eunice and sisabet.
This panel will address stratgies to overcome overwhelming vidder insecurity, ennui, fandom crises, and general suckitude. But first? We WALLOW!!! Chocolate will be provided.

They did provide chocolate; they provided an entire emergency kit: chocolate llama lollipops (made by vagabondage, I think?), hug cards, render stress balls.

You cannot have mine. I am keeping it.

sisabet made a video of her unfinished videos. It may be my favorite vid of the con. I am sorry she hasn't put it online.

Most characteristic sisabet quote: "It's ironic -- actually, that's not ironic, it's just typical."

fan_eunice and sisabet started off by identifying constructive vs. destructive suckitude. It's important to identify which you're feeling so that you can seek the right kind of help: chocolate and hugs or constructive/practical assistance.

Constructive	Destructive
I didn't write anything down for "Constructive", which would be telling if I needed to be told.	you hate your beta comparing yourself to other vidders you delete all your files

Eating: very important. Also, don't forget to pee.

Sometimes you need to take a break/wallow. please back away from the delete button.

Get a second opinion before you delete anything

If someone says "vidding is hard," that's a code: it means "hug me now."

Know what you can expose yourself to: sometimes you need to stay away from other vidders' work to avoid performance anxiety, comparisons that will make you feel bad, performance anxiety. Sometimes you need to avoid your own previous work, because it's not good to compare yourself to anyone, even your previous self.

Different kinds of hard
celli mentioned the first time anxiety, of having to do something for the first time; others mentioned the feeling of having to surpass a previous success. deejay pointed out that even experienced vidders have first-time anxiety when they have to learn new tools.

jackiekjono: Be wary of the "I hate to impose" feeling; don't hesitate to ask questions.

theodosia: Keep in mind that every single project you undertake is not a vote on your worth as a human being. Don't be afraid to quit or just to put something down and come back to it later.

fan_eunice: Make the worst possible vid you can.

heresluck: I've had to learn that other people's goals for me may not have anything to do with my goals for myself.