(a) Watching other people make my ideas into vids made it look much easier than it actually was, but by the time I had convinced myself of this, I had put too much effort into it to give up;

(b) Probably sooner or later I will give up and just make a vid about how goddamn gorgeous Dean Winchester is, but right now I'm making the vids that I want to see but which I can't find out there and don't think will ever be out there unless I make or commission them. Or trying to -- this vid has shifted considerably since my first conception of it, because I just couldn't pull it off, but still. That's where I started, anyway.

(Though am quite serious about doing Vid #2035 on How Gorgeous Is That Dean Winchester Guy, Anyway?)